I miss you.
I want to hug you.
I need you

You was the only who listend to me.
But you are gone now.
Actually you don't lived.

You are just a character in my perfect world.
It's all fantasy.
But why?
Why can't i make the best of my life?
Why is it so hard?

Is it because some people are standing in the way?
Or is it just that i don't trust any body anymore?

Why me?
Why?

There is nobody who can take my hand and survive life with me.
Why?
Where is that person?
I need him so badly now.

The time now.
That is the most hardest time for me.
You don't see it.
But i've survived a lot.
But worser it can't be i hope so.

Why on my thirteenth?
Why not on my fortieth?
Than i am stronger than ever.

Now i am just to young.

Luckely nobody knows it.

People pay attention.
Someone looks happy but she/ he isn't.
That kind of people just don't trust the world.
They want to keep people away from them selfs.
Even it doesn't works.



Greetz Till i'm gone.